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18 December 2009 @ 04:17 pm
State of the Dragon: Better than the Alternative  
The other morning, I posted that I didn't feel quite real, nor was I anywhere near happy.

Yesterday, my psychologist said a few things that brought a lot of things into focus.

I think I've finally come to terms with the separation itself, and worked past some of the emotional knots I've been tying myself into. From this point, I really can start concentrating on finding a decent, full-time job.

I walked out of his office feeling happy for the first time in months, feeling hope that wasn't tinged with desperation.

And this morning, when I woke up...

I felt real.








I'm Alive!
Electric Light Orchestra
from the movie
Xanadu


I'm alive -- and the world shines for me today!
I'm alive -- suddenly I am here today!
Seems like forever (and a day!)
Thought I could never (feel this way!)
Is this really me?
I'm alive ...
I'm alive ...

I'm alive -- and the dawn breaks across the sky!
I'm alive -- and the sun rises up so high!
Lost in another world (far away!)
Never another word (till today!)
But what can I say?
I'm alive!
I'm alive!
I'm alive!

Suddenly came the dawn (from the night!)
Suddenly I was born (into light!)
How can it be real?
I'm alive!
I'm alive!
I'm alive!

I'm alive -- and the world shines for me today!
I'm alive -- suddenly I am here today!
Seems like forever (and a day!)
Thought I could never (feel this way!)
Is this really me?
I'm alive!
I'm alive!
I'm alive!


(Cheesy Disco Music Video HERE!)

 
 
I feel: happyREAL.
 
 
 
Moredena: <3ladyringo on December 19th, 2009 12:42 am (UTC)
*hugs!*
Araquan Skytraceraraquan on December 19th, 2009 01:20 am (UTC)
*hugs*

You know, Xanadu was one of the movies I ripped to watch down here if things ever got slow/boring enough... }:D
Stalbonstalbon on December 21st, 2009 05:40 pm (UTC)
Hmmm, I also suggest that, while you are at your comic store job (if you still are working it), you have a gander at Jack of Fables #40. It's not hard to miss, with a dragon splashed across the cover. :)